When the missionary use to teach me, before and after my baptism one of the missionary’s would always finish with the same thing. After we were done with the lesson or food we had said our closing prayer, we had made a joke, chatting about a few things and got our coats on this particular missionary would always turn to me and say “Ella, do you know that God loves you?”
“Do you know that God loves you?” That’s a pretty good question huh, it’s also a pretty big one.
My answer to this question varied from the start of my lessons to when they finished and this missionary got transferred. It ranged from sure and travelled through the following; okay, I suppose, I don’t know, I’m working on it and I think so. At the beginning I just wasn’t sure, it was far easier to agree with the missionary by saying sure or okay, as I continued to grow I started to look for the answer and as I questioned and queried, as I put my faith into practice and did the things that my Heavenly Father asked me to do my answer started to change into I suppose and I don’t know. At this point I was still in a state of unknowing and so diligently looking for the answer that I could not say yes or no. When I had found and been testified too by the Holy Spirit that my God, my Heavenly Father, my creator did in fact love me my assurance of His love for me wavered depending on my week, my month but mostly my choices through those times the answers would be such things as I think so or I’m working on it.
I am sure this missionary had no idea what effect this question had on me, the importance it brought to my life and the significance it had in times of doubt, pain and loss. It’s easy once you have faith to believe that your Heavenly Father exists because that requires you to have faith in Him. It is not easy especially at the hard times to believe He loves you because that my friends requires you to have faith in yourselves, to believe you are worthy and beautiful, to believe that no matter what there is someone out there that loves you unconditionally and eternally.
“Ella do you know that God loves you?”
YES. I know that God loves me, that I am His daughter, that no matter my choices and my mistakes He will always love me, He will always be there for me, no matter how many times I get on my knees, no matter what I ask for, no matter how long I stay on my knees or how far away I travel from Him He loves me. He loves me not ‘like’ a parent loves a child but loves because He is my parent and I am His child.
I testify, I share my thoughts, my feelings and my beliefs with you that your Heavenly Father, whether you believe in Him of not loves you, he cares for you, when you hurt so does He and when your happy He is joyful, He will not leave you, not now and not ever, He is an eternal unconditional parent and I know it is hard at times but this post isn’t a guide book on how to find out that your Heavenly Father loves you it is about asking the question, as someone said today ‘take a break from your life and interview yourself’, start with the most important question.
“Do you know that God loves you?
In the name of Jesus Christ